I always know it would be tough but never ever thought it would make me feel the same feeling of worhthlessness again. Now I feel as if there is no more meaning to carry on with life. Two years back the same thoughts covered my mind now its getting back again. How often should I have to suffer like this?

You always showed it will be tough for me also, TO BE WITHOUT YOU, but hardly I ever thought it will this much tough. Its my fault, anyway, to step in that way. It was my mistake to build up a dream. A dream from the beginning I always know would never come true...

I am writting all this here because I feel like dying and if I write something like this in my diary they will feel you are responsible for it. You are not. It me who is responsible. Well I don't think anyother good thing will ever happen in my life again...

I know it would be stupidity to give up life... But how long should I keep losing... How often do I have to fell down...

I will miss you forever... I have waited for you. But I don't think I will ever get what I am looking for....